I’m departing from my usual travel post today. For some reason, I feel that I need to post something else. Maybe you’ll get something out of it, or maybe not. The world we live in is full of uncertainty and anxiety. It can get us down if we let it. Today, I want to help us feel more certain in an uncertain world. Trigger alert: Scripture involved.
We are facing an uncertain future. It cannot be denied. There was a time not so many years ago when I didn’t let the ranting of politicians, stupid laws passed in state legislatures, or the nutty actions of public figures bother me much. But you must agree, it seems a lot different today. We lock our doors, freeze our credit, and walk through life suspicious, and afraid. It makes me anxious sometimes. What about you?
I like to know what’s coming. I don’t like surprise parties. I like to know my path. When my husband and I take out our little RV, I want to know which highway we’ll travel and where we will spend the night. I want to know our destination but instead of looking at a map or searching out camping spots on my tablet, I want to see down the road, too. When I was a little girl, my grandparents lived in Bisbee. When we traveled to this little town in the SE corner of Arizona, it seemed a long way to go. After we turned off the main highway and headed south, I remember we traveled on a flat plain with mountains far in the distance. But we couldn’t get to Bisbee until we got to those mountains. I trusted my parents to know the way.
One time we were traveling in northern New Mexico and we drove into a rainstorm so heavy we couldn’t see anything around us. We weren’t sure what to do. Should we just stop until the storm passes? What if another car runs into us? We crawled along until we found an offramp to a rest stop. What does that kind of anxiety say about me, or you? When I was a child, I trusted my parents. I knew they loved me and would protect me. I was very blessed. But now I’m an adult. Who do I trust now? I want to trust my experience…my good sense. But in some cases, I have no experience to call upon. My instincts may be faulty. I don’t have enough information to make a good decision.
Of course, I’m talking about things much bigger than looking at GPS, deciding where to take a vacation, or how to get out of the rain. Would I take a job as a pilot when I’ve only had lessons on YouTube? Would I take my grandchildren to a river to play when we don’t know how to swim? I’m talking about life-changing decisions. I’m talking about things that impact your life in material ways. I’m also talking about that small voice in your head at night…a voice full of worry and doubt.
In Acts 20:22-24 Paul says that he must go to Jerusalem, even though he knows he could be arrested there. He has no idea what might happen, he just knows he must go.
“And now, compelled by the Spirit, I am going to Jerusalem, not knowing what will happen to me there. I only know that in every city the Holy Spirit warns me that prison and hardships are facing me. However, I consider my life worth nothing to me; my only aim is to finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me – the task of testifying to the good news of God’s grace.”
I know from experience that my plan, my path is often revealed one step at a time. But not knowing the end result is tough. My worry and anxiety say that I am fearful to surrender that worry to God. I have to admit that I don’t always feel His presence. I don’t get the clear answer I’m looking for. But that’s when I realize I’m faking it. I’m trying to make a deal. It never works that way. Like Paul, I need to fully trust God and surrender myself completely to his purpose for my life. That’s hard! We are selfish beings and we want what we want. But I can tell you, that when I tricked myself into going forward with something because I “prayed” about it, when I was just throwing out empty words, that wrong path/decision always came back to haunt me. I also know that when I’m on my face before His presence, completely willing to do that hard thing I don’t want to do, I have never, never been disappointed. Never.
Paul went to Jerusalem without anxiety or apprehension. Why? Because he was sure of God’s plan for his life. Being sure of God, Paul was sure of his future. He didn’t know the events or details of his future but he was sure God was in charge. And that was enough for him.
If we don’t surrender to God’s love, we’re surely surrendering to something else: our moods, our circumstances, our fears, and our self-centered concerns and desires. We will end up downhearted and disillusioned. I saw a man a few days ago who shuffled into a waiting room at the hospital about to pass out from lack of oxygen. He grabbed a wheelchair, sat down, and used his feet to move forward, huffing and puffing like it was his last breath. A person got up and asked him if he needed help. “No,” he said. “I’m fine.”
He needed help. He needed oxygen. But he denied he needed any help. Isn’t that crazy? But that’s just what we do all the time. We put on a positive face and tell ourselves that things are just fine physically and emotionally. I’m sorry, but that’s just nuts. Seek God and His grace and love. He’ll give you the power to face whatever comes. Anything. I’ve seen it and I know it’s real. We don’t need to be afraid of the future.
Isaiah 41:13, NIV For I am the LORD your God who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you.